Dawn's Journal: August 2016

Letter for the little Dawn

Dear Dawn,

Hi! It's me, your future self. You may be crying right at this moment maybe because you were spanked by mom, or you miss dad but hey. I'm here. I'm listening. I know there were times when you felt alone, when you felt like you're not important. But you're not alone, and you are important.

I know you don't feel beautiful and you claim yourself to be ugly, that's why when people tell you you are beautiful, you reject it. You never believed. When you did, you became boastful. Well, you are beautiful, believe it or not, you don't have to brag yourself to everybody else, believe me, there is this one guy who noticed you and he loves you for who you are.

Dawn, please don't rush into growing up. I know you might be far from your friends and you keep on complaining that you never liked school. Finish it, you have a great future ahead of you and some people are actually recognizing you for your talents and you being smart. Enjoy every bit of it.

I just want you to know that we're okay. We're doing fine. Life is a mess but it's okay. As long as I have you, and our memories, I'll be fine. I will always remember your jolliness, your quirkiness, your never ending questions, and how overly dramatic you were crying for the things that you shouldn't worry about. I love how you loved your toys like your own child. Every stuffed toy lasted, when they were broken, you never stopped crying. That's when I know you are such a genuine person.

I miss you. I wish I could feel the happiness again when you see your dad, I wish I could experience the joy again of playing outside like it's the best moment of our lives. I miss how we used to dream, how we believed our dreams are going to happen no matter what. I miss you.

It's hard to bring you back to where I am now but I promise you, I will always keep you here. To remember the things that made us happy, I'll keep you safe.

Please don't let the stress of growing up get to you. Talk to your family. Don't be such a kill joy. Don't hurt yourself just because of some guy. Please don't. You'll find the right one someday, and when you're ready, you'll know what love really means.

P.S You'll be fine, trust me,

Love,

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, by Dawn Flores

Review: Colourpop Ultra Matte Liquid Lipstick (Kae)

Colourpop is one of the famous makeup brands in the United States, their liquid lipsticks are having a huge hype because of the quality and of course, the swatches are to die for. I discovered that my friend is a re-seller of famous Korean and US cosmetics, and I got my Colourpop Liquid Matte Lipstick from her. Her online shop is called beautypop.ph so for you guys residing here in the Philippines, you can get one from her.

First of all, the transaction was swift. She currently updates her customers on Instagram if the order was made already, when will the shipping be and etc. It was easy for me because she lives like a few walks from our house.

It came with a very cute paper bag with the Beauty Pop Ph's contact information

So let us now proceed to the product review.

Just to let you know I did an 8-hour test with Colourpop, I put the product on, went out and ate without reapplying.

When I put them on at first, this is how they looked like:

Closer look

So for the whole day, I wasn't able to take a picture of what I ate but for the whole day, I had chicken with rice and mashed potato. In the afternoon we had a frappe, a clubhouse and fries. Then we had steak for dinner. (This is so embarrassing, I know I do eat a lot) hehehe but that's okay!

So what I like about this liquid lippie is that it's not transferable. Your spoon or straw won't be filled with too much lipstick. Unlike with creamy mattes, I've been eating my lipstick because it's transferring. Also, it's very comfortable to wear, though it's matte and has a powdery feel, it's not heavy on your lips so you can wear it with confidence the whole day.

I love the shade, most people think I was going for the emo look but not really. I just love that it brings out the sassy look but definitely not going for emo.

My advice, do not wear this lipstick with light eye make-up, for me it doesn't match or it doesn't go well. This shade is good for a night out or parties and events.

After a long day, this is how it looked like without reapplying

As you can see, the product went off on the center part of my lower lip but over all, the product stayed in place (Sorry my blemishes are showing cause my concealer is already breaking out)

Pros:

Easily dries
Non-transferable
Lasts long enough (it actually lasted until I ate the first time)
Might not stay for 8 hours but hey, reapplying is not an issue
Can be removed easily with a make up remover
Lots of awesome swatches to choose from
Provides velvety but light feel

Cons:

The wand is too long
Not easy to correct (for me)

So over all, I would rate this product a 5/5. Simply because it is my first time using a liquid matte lipstick, I always go for creamy mattes but they're all over the place so this is a nice shift for me.

Do you have any thoughts with Colourpop as well? Let me know. Toodles!